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Hey, I'm JAYNA from HPPS St Margs Sec! I'm a proud megalifer, and I BELONG to CENTRAL 2♥. He is my strength, my fortress, my father and friend, my everything.
Artistic RHYTHMIC GYMNAST♥, and was from XJT'07, C Com'08.
Lives to S1M4J!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007 @ 9:08 PM

I feel wrong. Terribly wrong. :((( I feel HURT. No, I'm hurt. Hurt badly-on the inside.

I don't want to lie to myself. Is this what I thought it would be? My life is a lie. I lied, to myself. When I was in P6, when I saw my 242 PSLE low low low score, I was hurt. But I lied and concealed it. -No offence- With the low expectations that Mr Lim had of me, he was 'happy' that I got 242. But that's not my score. I'm not that kind of girl. I know what I'm capable of. And it's far far dinosaur kilomiles away from that score. And so, I tell myself to rectify the problem. And WHAM! Of course, the problem is gym. It takes up too too too much of my time. So I tell myself I won't do gym in secondary school, no matter all the hurt that I would have to go through, being ever so envious of those girls performing on the stage, I would still bear with it for the sake of my studies, which was going to path my life. But where-where am I now? Aren't I still in gym? Why? Don't ask me. I'm about as curious as you. My grades are slipping. This can't happen. My dream for transferring to NJC to do IP remains.

That would be 2007/2008 goal. This is the first time I'm publiscing my dream/goal. This is one I intend to achieve. I really want to get this dream of mine to come true. It now means everything to me. My parents gave birth to me because they had high hopes for me. It's nice to know people pin their hopes on you.

But it can also be very pressurising. :/

Still, I intend to do well in the future. I'm still not very sure what kind of job I want, but of course, I would LOVE to do my father's job. It's a fund manager. Something to do with investing. That means I have to take ECONS! But sad sad sad, my school has no econs. So, I HAVE TO TRANSFER TO NJC!!

TODAY
First RG practice, only sec ones and sec twos. Rui Ling didn't come, so I felt quite horrible. That was one fellow sister that I felt, understood me! We did the normal warming up, except we had to do split on the floor for like 3 mins. The next time we will have to do oversplit on the chair. I know I obviously can't do that for my left leg. And the next practice is on Thursday! What about all that rest we were supposed to be given? How could they??? I have to cure my leg you know...
Anyway, got into the team. Here's the RG team for C Com;;;
Edrea
Su Fen
Elaine
Jayna
Evelyn(Sec 2)

I'm glad I made the team, but I hope to do well. God please be with me,,,please. :((((((

Dear God, please please please help my life to get back on track. Oh father, I pray you help me face up to this lie in my life. And dear lord help me rectify the problem. Now I pray you be with all the megalifers, I pray also for Joan and Huiming that you can soften their parents' hearts, and they will be moved to get to know you. I pray also for _________, I pray that you protect her as she goes through this hard time, I pray that you take away her fever, and any sickness she has. I also pray for her grandmother, that the op will go smoothly, and you'll take the whole situation into your hands and work your perfect will.
In Jesus' most precious name,
Amen.

Delirious.