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Hey, I'm JAYNA from HPPS St Margs Sec! I'm a proud megalifer, and I BELONG to CENTRAL 2♥. He is my strength, my fortress, my father and friend, my everything.
Artistic RHYTHMIC GYMNAST♥, and was from XJT'07, C Com'08.
Lives to S1M4J!

Friday, September 21, 2007 @ 8:20 PM

Jayna, I'm SORRY.
I can't hold out till after exams. I have to vent it here before it destroys my saturday in church, with my EVER SO PRECIOUS C2, then I would have die-die lived through another week at school FOR NOTHING.

I need God. I need to EMO TO HIM. Like Ernie said. Like Joanne told me.
Now everyone's praying their heart out at prayer meeting, while I am stuck at home. WHY CAN'T EVERYTHING MOVE TO THE EAST? I feel so sad. Like I don't know. I'm at home, I just watched a video on Doomsday. I think it's going to happen. I feel like crying. (Do you know holding it back makes your cheeks hurt?) Everytime I feel like crying there are many voices in my head, LITERALLY.
"Don't cry. You have to hold those tears back." -Adlin (In P3 when I fell down really badly)
"It's okay, we're all in this together"-Central 2 (Even though they never said that)
"I'm scared too" -Jodie
"YOU HAVE ME" -God

These voices are screaming in my head, and it hurts. BUT THEY JUST WON'T STOP. Maybe because I'm not letting them in. I thought my gor would be around, but even HE isn't. ): WHAT DO I DO NOW? You must be thinking I'm crazy, going all EMO over this whole end-of-the-world thing. But I promise you, it's true. And my friend's are yet to be saved! ):

Wth. If I have to emo it all, I'll emo it NOW.

I don't know what to do. At least I have my prayer group with me. But I'm the leader, I have to guide, lead and care for them. How do I do that if I can't even control myself?? JAYNA. PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER. I'M SICK OF YOU BEING EMO.
I'm never emo. And I'll never be.

Dear God,

It's me, Jayna, emo-ing to you, just like my church people told me too. It's comforting to even know that you're on the reciever's end, listening to all my crap. God,
WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME? Why am I so...crapped up? My studies are droppping, my friends are...? And now this doomsday thing? Is this a test? I HOPE SO. God please give me back my ANTI EMO self. I miss her. ): Instill in me yet again my MOTTO:
ANTI EMO, EMO NONO.
Thank you for CENTRAL 2, JODIE, PRAYER GROUP, ST MARGS and MOST OF ALL, YOU. For just being there to here this. I know there's probably alot of people doing this to you. Thanks (: I LOVE YOU.

AMEN (:

I'M BACK! :D
One prayer solved everything. Sorry for that STUPID EMO PART. I had to totally rant it all out. (: WHOOTS! I'm ANTI EMO yet again. Thank you God, for rubbing that anti-emo itch cream on me! :D It itches ain't no more! YOU AMAZE ME! :D Whoots~ MEGALIFE TOMORROW (: I MISS YOU C2. WHOO Let there be whatever heck eclipse! Kill me! (: WHOOTS! Let me die! YAY :D :D

I've got a saviour that is living in me
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH
I wanna know, I wanna know you today.
You are the best thing that has happened to me,
AND THE WORLD WILL NEVER TAKE,
THE WORLD WILL NEVER TAKE YOU AWAY! (:

EMO ADDICTION?
Look for JAYNA! :D

what you see is what you get. (: